I decided to join Shell today for Pour You Heart Out. Check her out for the rules, the main one is Pour Your Heart out and remember to be respectful of others feelings and thoughts.

I'm going to apologize in advance, I am in a bad place today. Not just today, for a while now. But I am at a point now where I cannot hold it all in any more. I am in pain, so much that I can barely stand it. I can barely walk. My skin hurts, my hair hurts, everything hurts. My eyes are not working the way they should and I am angry. I want to play with my kids, I want to run around my 2 acre back yard. I want my life back. I want my memories back.

I spend a lot of time trying to hide my pain, carrying on as if nothing is wrong, pushing through even when I am not sure if I can. I can't believe that I was given my three miracle children only to have them grow up with a mother that can barely function. They do not deserve this, they deserve so much better. I don't want them to have to watch me deteriorate the way that I watched my Grandmother. I know how hard it is to see someone you love suffer in pain.

I want to not feel sorry for myself. I want my pain to go away. I want to find a doctor that will not just send me to another. I want to find a way to be pain free. I want more than anything to be some version of normal.

I know that I am lucky, I would rather be the one with the illness than anyone else. I know that I am fortunate that I have a healthy family. I know that it could always be worse.

I read about Monkey today. I cried and I felt guilty, because I know that even though my body is shutting down on me, my kids are healthy and I am so very fortunate. I remember when the twins were born, two months early, I remember the fear and I know how lucky we are that they survived. I know that not everyone has a healthy child if you have not read about Monkey please do. If you can help in any way please do. Ian over at Daily Dose of Reality Is organizing a fundraiser so if you have anything to donate or would like to enter the raffle stop by and see him. If you would like to make a direct donation to help click on the link below and it will take you directly to paypal. Any way that you can help makes a difference wheather it is through a prayer, a dollar or more.

Click on monkey to donate...please help!

I was recently given the opportunity to try out some Cascadian Farm products, thanks to MyBlogSpark.

I was able to try two boxes of Cascadian Farm cereal–Fruitful O’s and Cinnamon Crunch, two boxes of granola–oats and honey and dark chocolate almond, and two boxes of chewy granola bars–chocolate chip and dark chocolate almond. Also inside the package was a handy reusable green tote bag that was able to fit all of the Cascadian Farm products.

I have to say, the family was a little skeptical of the organic products. But much to my delight they loved everything. The Granola Bars were a huge hit with my husband and the twins. I would have to say that my favorite was the Granola-oats and Honey Cereal which is also a great topping for vanilla yogurt. The taste was absolutely delicious. My oldest daughter loved the Cinnamon Crunch and little K was thrilled with the Fruitful O's. They have all not only been enjoying their morning cereal they have been having them for their bedtime snacks too.





This year marked the 40th Anniversary of Earth Day. To celebrate, you are invited to live green by pledging to follow a few eco-friendly tips on Casadian Farms Facebook Page. For each person that signs a pledge (through 5/31/2010), Cascadian Farm will donate $1 to the Organic Farming Research Foundation (up to a maximum donation of $40,000 with a minimum donation of $20,000). In turn, your pledge will help to create a cycle of positive change towards a more sustainable future!

Visit CascadianFarm.com to learn more and download a $1.00 coupon today!


Now on to the good stuff. Cascadian Farms and My Blogspark would like to give you a chance to try out these great products too!





To enter:
Leave a comment telling me which Cascadian Farm product you’d most like to try.

For additional entries: leave a separate comment for each -
1. Tell me what your family does to live greener.
2. Sign the pledge on Facebook.

Contest ends 5/23/10 at 11:59 EDT and is open to residents of USA who are 18 years old or older. Void where prohibited by law. Winner will be chosen by random.org after the close of the contest and will have 48 hours to respond to email. If no response is received within 48 hours, winner forfeits their prize and a new winner will be drawn. No purchase necessary.

Cascadian Farm provided me with the products, information, and prize packs through MyBlogSpark. All opinions are mine.

It's that time if the week again today I will be participating in Friday Follow hosted by One 2 Try, Hearts Make Families, Midday Escapades

This idea is a fun way to find out about new blogs, find new friends, and grow in followers. So hop on over and link up for a chance to meet up with a bunch of great bloggers! So if you have time I encourage you to participate.

Here's how YOU can join the Friday Follow celebration:

--Link up your blog name and URL using the MckLinky below. Only need to add on one blog to be seen on all the blog hops.

--Grab the Friday Follow button and include on your Friday Follow blog post.

--Follow the Friday Follow hostesses listed in the first 3 slots.

--Follow as many other blogs on the linky as you'd like.

--Take a moment to comment on the blogs telling them you're from Friday Follow.

--Follow back when you get a new follower through Friday Follow.

This list is new each week. The links do not carry over. Please link up each week for new participants to find your blogs. The list is only open to add your blog links on Fridays. It will be visible all week to visit the blogs listed.

Tooth Soap® Happy Mother's Day Giveaway!

Win one of 4 $100 Tooth Soap® gift certificates! It's your chance to try out some of the MOST TALKED ABOUT product on the blogger web!


To enter:


* Post the Tooth Soap® Happy Mother's Day button on your blog sidebar, AND within YOUR FRIDAY FOLLOW post.
* Please leave a comment on either Midday Escapades, Hearts Make Families or One 2 Try Blog (on the May 7th Friday Follow post) telling Tooth Soap® that you plan to participate in the contest!
* Please keep your sidebar button up until Friday, May 14th 2010.
* After May 15th , 2010 the winner of the Friday Follow will be announced on Midday Escapades, Hearts Make Families and One 2 Try Blogs.


Winners will be chosen at random using random.org .
Winner will be contacted via email to confirm winnings.
Winners have 24 hours from notification date to claim prizes.
Contest ends May 15, 2010 12:00 AM EST.