Todays Back to Blogging assignment is to re-upload a post that you wish more people had read and explain why it was important to you.

This post reminds me that even when you think all hope is lost, when you feel as though you are ready to give up that you never know what lies ahead of you. I experienced an honest to God miracle and I am fortunate to have two very special reminders that no matter what anything is possible.
When I was struggling to have children I felt so alone and isolated. I didn't know anyone who was going through infertility and I didn't have anyone that could understand how much I wanted to be a mother. I wrote this post for several reasons one was to celebrate the twins and the other was so that just maybe someone that was going through a difficulty or struggle would be able to find hope in my experience.

Heckle and Jeckle and realizing that somethings are
meant to be~

The one thing that I always knew I wanted to do in life was be a mom. After years of struggles and issues and having my sweet little Rorie I managed to get pregnant again. However, the universe had other plans and my sweet little angel was never meant to be mine. I still remember very vividly the pain and despair I felt, the loss that still goes with me sometimes. I had never before nor since felt that kind of pain and those closest to me know that I completely fell apart. My life and marriage was in shambles and then September 11 happened and every ones lives were turned upside down, things that seemed important evaporated in the aftermath and something else happened too. Those of us that were on the outside looking in were able to count our blessings and put our lives in order. In November my Husband started talking about trying to have another baby. I was against it, I was still having such a hard time coping with the feelings of my lost little baby, November was when my baby would have been born and I was so afraid to try again. After the first of the year hubs began to bring it up again and I was still very resistant. Valentines day was quickly approaching and Hubs was getting more persistent I told him I had no desire to go through the medicine and shots the rigorous schedules the temperature taking and tracking. So I gave in on a few conditions it was a one shot deal I agreed to try one more time. No medicine, no charts, absolutely nothing and if it didn't work I would never try again. I can honestly say I just knew it wouldn't work, Hubs had the flu and I had no idea if I could even ovulate on my own so I was feeling pretty confident at that point that I would have RoRo as my one and only. This is the point in which God laughed and I don't mean chuckled, I mean fell on the floor rolling around nearly pee your pants laughing, because a few weeks later I threw up and not just once. So of course the husband runs to the store to buy the pee test at which point I was furious because Lord knows I had single-handedly kept EPT in business for years and you can't buy just one so he came home with several. I waited a few days and convinced myself it was a stomach flu until I was late. So I took the tests all of them and the all came out positive. I was in shock and scared. I knew not to get my hopes up so I called the doc and went in for the tests. The first blood tests showed very low numbers so I was prepared for the worst and over the next two weeks I went in every few days for more blood work and on the final day Doc says, I think we need an ultrasound. I thought to myself, here we go again. We got ready, got a baby sitter for Ro and went to the Doctor. I assumed the position on the table and the hubby grabbed a chair and in comes the sweet little ultrasound tech and finds the babies, yes I said babies, there were originally three but there sat in my belly two little heartbeats strong and healthy. Needless to say Hubs nearly passed out and all I could do was cry there they were my two little babies. After a difficult pregnancy and a tense seven months my babies were born my little man at 5lbs and 6oz and my princess Lyla 3lbs and 1 oz. We were so blessed, they were able to come home after only two weeks even though everyone thought it would be months, they defied the odds. In just a few weeks they will be 7 years old. It doesn't seem like seven years. They are amazing little people . They are funny and infuriating, strong and sensitive they are each others opposites. They have balance and they bring us all more entertainment than anyone should have. And each time I look at them I remind myself that no matter how bad something seems, you never know what waiting around the corner for you and that there is so much truth in the saying, "When one door closes, another one opens".




This post is written to play along with SITS and their Back to Blogging event.
If you would like to join in then stop by and link up!

This week, I will be taking a look back at what got me blogging in the first place and get back to the root of blogging and that is making connections with people.
There is a contest to try and win a Turquoise Sky Washer and Dryer from Electrolux. Which I desperately need since I have just gone through my third washer this year!

This event is sponsored by SITS, Standards of Excellence, Westar Kitchen and Bath, and Florida Builder Appliances.

Not much has changed in a few years she's still like this all the time. I know, I'm so lucky!

I'm still here, I haven't gone anywhere, I can't believe it's been nearly a week since I posted last. I was doing so well and then I wasn't.  I've been  having another horrible flareup which not only affects my body but my mind.  I can't seem to get my thoughts together long enough to put them down in writing. 
I have also been crocheting, alot. I am working on Ro's afghan and what started as a small project has become something else. I don't want to give it away just yet. I am almost finished with it so I promise as soon as I am I will post the pictures. But for now I am going to keep crocheting and get this blanket done.  I only have 20 more flowers to do before I am done. I can hardly believe that a little over a year ago all I could do was crochet a chain and now I can do almost anything. When I started this I didn't think I would love it so much. I am so thankful for youtube. It has been such an amazing teacher for my learning process.  So back at I go before I have to head out and take sister to her first bass lesson. She's been wanting to learn and we found her a teacher so we will see how it goes. I am sure it won't be long before she has a garage band, in my garage I'm sure!

I know, I know it's Tuesday but frankly I was too exhausted last night to get my post up. So here is the short version.

I love my kids and I have evidently loved them so much that I have made them completely incapable of taking care of themselves. They are little pigs. There room is a disaster area.  I have asked them repeatedly to clean it and sometimes they do ( their version of clean is hide everything so I can't see it and call it clean) or they complain that its just too hard to clean it. Really, isn't cleaning your room just making a mess in reverse? And you didn't have any trouble making the mess so I would have to assume that it is within your capabilities to do the reverse and clean it. Yeah well a Mom can dream right? So yesterday I donned the hasmat suit and decided that enough was enough and went in to help them clean there room. They are seven, at seven years old I had chores lots of them. Mine have very few until recently, anyway the me helping clean the room turned into me cleaning the room with the help of Little R who is evidently on a quest to be the best child in the world, while Middle K could care less he was off playing in the yard.  After several hours I finally called in the reinforcements - my bestie - Loco YaYa and we managed to get it completely knocked out. Now needless to say they have been informed that the next thing on the ground hits the trash but I have a feeling that one is going to take a few times to sink in.  So here I am after a very restless night feeling like I got hit by a train, but at least there room is clean.

Ok so Trisha over at Mom Dot has presented us with another great idea. Introduce Yourself to Your Neighbor Day. Sounds fun so I am in.


Hi my name is Stephanie ,
I am 37 for a few more weeks (except all of my amazing coffee mom friends who just happen to all be 33 and 34 have mandated that I get to be the same age as them until we can all be 40 together) So scratch that I am 33 ( humor me)

                                 
I have three kiddos Rorie 10 going on 15, Keegan my crazy little man 7 and his twin sister Rylin the queen of all things.

 

I am married to Roy and have been since 1997 and will continue to be forever ; cause lets face it no one wants either of our baggage.. Just kidding I am head over heals in love with this man that makes me happy, crazy, angry, crazy, takes wonderful care of our family... did I say crazy.

I am one of the few lucky people in this world who can say I met my Best Freind Soul Mate, Amanda who is the amazing, dedicated, hysterical, funny, dependable anchor in my sometimes wobbly foundation 11 years ago.

Through various life challenges and all we have ended up rasing our combined 5 kids as one big family.

I love all 5 of them as if I gave birth to each, they make me laugh, cry, scream, giggle and want to pull my hair out a lot of the time. But what kids don't.

I am addicted to Diet Coke, I love Cheese-Its (to the point that I hide them from the kids so I don't have to share)

I love dark chocolate, I am scared of the dark, I love scary movies but not horror movies, action movies are my favorite.

I love to shop, but not just shop bargain shop, nothing gives me a bigger thrill than finding something I want for 70 - 90 % off.

I love to cook , sew and crochet.

I confess that I am a Twitterholic and I am loving the blog world that I have been introduced to.

I have two dogs Buckley and Ella both labs. We just moved to the country and I am loving every minute of it.

I have a chronic illness, but I am bound and determined to kick its' ass one way or the other.

So thats just a little more about me.