A new kind of life and Follow Friday April 9th

So many things have changed for me lately. Life has taken a turn. There is a kind of peacefulness that has fallen on my house that hasn't been here in a very long time. I hoped for it, but never expected it. It seems as though we have walked through a door and things have changed. Our family has found a new kind of normal and it is nice, we are all still adjusting but moving forward which is always good. It is new and different and I am not complaining at all.

For such a long time the only focus that I have had has been my kids. I know that I am not the only mom that this has happened to. I am not sure if my struggle with infertility propelled me into this role or if it is just who I am. I have always been the one that when the friends get together or invite me out I usually decline.

I hate leaving the kids for several reasons. One is that there are usually so bad I hate to inflict them on someone else (not really but kind of) Two, it seems as soon as I walk out the door all Hell breaks loose and my getting a break is never worth what I have to deal with when I get back home. Three is that I am kind of a homebody. When I became a mom that was kind of it for me. Don't get me wrong I love hanging out with the girls, having a drink or coffee but usually its only when the kids or at school or off at a sleepover. I enjoy spending time with my girlfriends but I prefer it when its in my backyard and all the kids are playing together and I am in my element.

I had also fallen into the mommy trap, you know the one. Where you start to think that all you can do is clean house, run errands, cook, make play dates, read books, do homework and essentially make your family happy. I am not saying that this is a bad thing but we all know that there is a point that we tend to loose ourselves. I gave up working a long time ago to be a SAHM. I wanted to be the supermom the ideal June Cleaver. It has since occurred to me that most women of the 50's and 60's must have been either heavily medicated or drinking most of the alcohol that they were marinating dinner with! My house is never perfect and laundry is never done but I try.

About a month ago after a lot of hemming and hawing on my part I decided to take on a new venture, something that everyone said was perfect for me and that I would be perfect for. I am now a Macaroni Kid Publisher Mom along with the BFF we are publishing for Macaroni Kid Golden Triangle it is amazing. I forgot how much I love working. Research is something I enjoy. Writing was once something I longed to do full time even though I am quite rusty. This is turning out to be such a rewarding experience. I have spent so many years wanting to find something else to do, but I knew that I needed to be available in case the kids were sick or if I was needed and my health has always been an obstacle as well. Macaroni Kid has been something that I have been able to fit in to my schedule. I am still learning balance. I have dissapeared from the twitterverse and my blog has been a little neglected but I know that as time goes by I will be able to find a place for all of it. Thanks to everyone who has supported and encouraged me to do this. I am loving it. It is awesome and if you would like to know more.. just ask!!!

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